Another high anxiety day

Don't know why. Actually reverted to checking cell phone records.

My therapist said that it's very normal for codependency to slip into high gear when someone who needs to be in control (me) experiences a lack of control (my life.)

Since I'm having this existential shift in which I'm coming to terms with the fact that almost nothing in life is within my control except me, and that almost everything except the present moment is unknown or unimportant, it's not really surprising that I have little freak outs like I did today.

I still feel edgy and I feel a pit in my stomach.

I'm going to exercize. Hopefully that will get the happy chemicals flowing and I'll feel better.