The Beginning of Something Else

On June 1, 2007 I found out my husband and partner of almost two decades had been unfaithful to me since before our marriage, and had been having intercourse with prostitutes for 3 1/2 years. This is what happened next.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Back to basics

Getting back to practices, facing outward and connecting, focusing on the present, taking care of myself - working all these things is grounding me and getting me back to a peaceful place.

It's like the fog suddenly comes in and settles, and then lifts just as unexpectedly.

Was life like this before? I don't remember.

I was asking Husband if he remembered how things were before all of this. I think I idealize the before time, which I know is not healthy.

Maybe this is the difference between being conscious and oblivious.

1 comment:

Willow said...

"Maybe this is the difference between being oblivious and unconscious".

I sometimes have this same thought and yet, I felt very conscious before......even in my present consciousness I will realize that I have yet again repressed/suppressed my true knowledge or awareness of a situation or my current feelings.

Old defense mechanisms die hard.