Couples therapy this weekend offered me another opportunity to see something I didn't know I didn't know.
In my family, people don't take responsibility for their feelings. In my mother's mind, every emotion she has ever felt has been because of somebody else.
What I didn't realize is that when my husband expresses a feeling, I hear two things:
1. I have done something wrong
2. I will be made responsible for his feelings, and making them better, no matter what
As a result, when he is telling me feelings, I respond to 1 and 2 above (what I hear) by getting hurt, angry and defensive. And he feels I angry, alone and resentful because I don't get/hear what he is actually expressing, and is also unaware that I'm responding to 1 and 2 above instead of his feelings.
It's a wonder anyone can communicate at all.
The Beginning of Something Else
On June 1, 2007 I found out my husband and partner of almost two decades had been unfaithful to me since before our marriage, and had been having intercourse with prostitutes for 3 1/2 years. This is what happened next.
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It's amazing to me too -- and amazing what we pick up from our parents and incorporate into our own patterns and understandings.
I learned from my parents that I am responsible for other people's emotional states -- and I am responsible for foreseeing and providing for their wants. When my husband asks me a simple question like, "Do we have any more chips?" I immediately get defensive and angry, because I learned from my parents' interactions that it was my job to provide or be blamed.
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